*Big, Big Sigh*

i really don't like the way i look.  i'll be honest--i don't.  yes, i like bits and pieces, like my eyes or my hair, and stuff like that but not the whole.  i know i'm fat.  yes, i've tried correcting that.  didn't work.  oh, and that has been the most depressing thing EVER.  worse, i know guys don't like fat girls (no brainer here).  equally depressing.  so the whole having a bf thing is kinda not going anywhere anytime soon (if ever).  why does life have to suck 24-7?